Today’s Monday. I have yet another round of work to do on those macros I’ve been struggling with for the last week. I thought I had it done, but not really. One last thing I have to find and fix, but it’s probably going to be harder than I think. It usually is.
My wife took the kids trick or treating yesterday. I, once again, have missed out because of my crippling back pain. I can’t even walk a few blocks with my kids for their special day. I’m furious, nauseated and f**king sick and tired of this. I want my life back. I can’t function like this. I can get up and do some basic things for a few minutes, so by definition I’m not “disabled”, but normal activities like shopping and walking down the street for more than a few steps are out of the question. I know a few of you have sympathized because you’ve been stricken with chronic illness or back pain yourselves. I’m going on something like three years of debilitating pain. I never had health insurance to deal with it before, and now that I do, the out-of-pocket expenses are too high to deal with this before Christmas. It’s just going to have to go into the hopper for next year. After we recover, of course, from Christmas. And God help us if something happens to the car and we need to fix it again.
I think part of it might be stress. I’m really worried about this stupid issue where I can’t figure out why the data’s not being moved to the right places at the right time. I feel like my job’s on the line, though I have every indication my boss fully supports me and is in my corner, understands and trusts I’ll get it done. I think he mentioned the last time we spoke about it the drop-dead deadline was when the big-wigs from corporate come to visit us and see how we’re doing now that the new system is live for us. That gives me some time, and mostly things are okay. It’s just a couple of things, and I have to root them out and fix them. I have to. I’m sick of saying this.
So today’s my Whine-a-Palooza. How was your weekend?