Snow is coming. A lot of it. Supposedly, somewhere between five inches and a foot of snow. Then sub-arctic cold.
I’m not a fan of snow followed by sub-arctic temperatures. Heck, I’m not a fan of snow anymore. When I first moved here a few years ago (I believe it’s now 23 years, to be exact), I thought the snow was beautiful. But it’s not. Not for a moment, not in any context. I don’t like snow, because I have to scrape it, brush it, shovel it, salt it, deal with it. Right now I can’t even clean my windshield because the jet nozzles on the sprayers are frozen.
I’m back at work today after a wonderful two week vacation. For once, it actually felt like a vacation. I didn’t have any pressures hovering over me. I didn’t have any projects slipped onto my list while I was out. I didn’t have any late items pending when I got back. I got through my email, did my reporting for the last two weeks, and got on with the business of work.
But my eyes welled when I came in and found my son sent me an email last night while I slept. He told me he loved me and how much fun he’d had with me over vacation. I couldn’t find the words to adequately express to him how much I loved being with him and being able to be with him on HIS terms (gaming FTW!).
We played Mass Effect for almost a week straight, and to the tune of 220 save points. We haven’t started Mass Effect 2 yet, but maybe soon.
It was a joyous, wonderful holiday season for me. And one I will cherish forever.
I spent some time with my daughter too. Chasing her around the house, tickle fights, cuddles on the sofa first thing when she woke up…all great Dad stuff, stuff you can’t replace.
And even though I didn’t spend a lot of face-to-face time with her, being near my wife felt so powerful and so different than it did in years past. Like we were really together somehow, even when doing different things.
I just miss them all so much, so terribly much, now that life is settling in again. And I can’t do anything about it.
So, I pray the Lord will uphold me with His strong right arm, that He will guide me and encourage me, to walk in His ways this new year more than ever before. I pray for His comfort and peace and presence, so I may draw near to Him, hear His voice, and seek His face.
I love you family, and I loved our time together.
I just wish it didn’t ache so much to be away from you all again. I miss you terribly.