That’s right, boys and girls! When you throw fuel on a fire, you get what’s called an explosion! Yay!
And that’s metaphorically what happened when I got into work today.
The person on vacation this week has left a few things hanging. I guess that’s the nature of the business she conducts. On the other hand, having a lot of vacation time she can take, and then taking it all in big chunks like a week at a time, means whoever has to cover for her needs to know what she does and how to do it.
So there was a three-alarm fire yesterday that escalated overnight. It’s an international customer, which means they conduct business while I’m sleeping. But I come in today and there’s a whole slurry of new emails I have to wade through with no idea whatever how to proceed.
But nothing like that exists. Right now, if the person I’m supposed to be backing up decided to leave the company, there’s no way anyone could step in and do the job she’s doing. No way.
And so I’ve lost my cool and vented about my frustration to two separate people already this morning. I’ve calmed since then, but I find this frustrating beyond my ability to cope at the moment. Not only this, but I know I’ve been told I “dropped the ball” the last time this person went on vacation, because she didn’t provide adequate direction on how to do her job.
Not to mention I have to do my job too. And I’m expected not to let that slip either.
I’m at the point, today, where the grass is looking a little greener. I know this is a good company and a good position in this company. I know that emphatically. And if I took a position outside, I might lose pay, benefits, my bonuses (a lot of companies promise bonuses they don’t deliver; I’ve gotten one every quarter for the last four years by virtue of working here), or some other perk I’ve come to appreciate…or worse, rely on. (Cell phone carrier discount, anyone?)
So I won’t shop my wares. Not now. Not yet. But I’m close. I’m very close.
And the explosion will be a lot bigger if and when I no longer back up this team’s members.
Until then, I need a stiff drink and a good massage. *Sigh*